2020 Is Cancelled: Moving Forward
4.56PM AEST.
I'm typing this out in the midst of chilly Melbourne.
In lockdown 2.0
Oh what a life.
I haven't written anything in a while. Well also because of some "technical issues" involving the death of my lovely companion -- Aqua, the loyal macbook air. For those wondering why: I accidentally spilled a whole cup of HOT BOILING TEA into my laptop.
No, no comments necessary.
I have accepted enough judgment and degrading stares from the guy in the computer shop.
It was an accident, OKAY? Okay.
Anyway let's rant about something else.
2020 has been one hell of a ride, yes. We're only halfway, but it seems like the world has gone through at least 3 cycles of fire - burnt - fire if not more. For context, in Australia we have battled through: bushfire - coronavirus - unemployment - BLM - more coronavirus and more to comeee yay
Tbh this year could've been worse for me.
But for the weirdest reason that I'm still not sure of, I was actually out of the lion's cage by the start of the year. An epiphany I thought wouldn't happen in the near future, at the time. I was quite pessimistic, or better phrased: I had careful expectations of what might happen. I didn't want to lift my head too high just to fall down hard.
Afterwards, things went by very slowly. I'm stepping forward, little by little.
It was frustrating in a lot of ways, but I guess I really have to be grateful for where I'm standing now. As slow as I'm moving, I AM moving. Some of my friends are stuck, in stagnancy because of this whole pandemic. A lot of things are cancelled. To them, 2020 IS CANCELLED.
So while analyzing this whole state, I am trying to place myself in their position. In the position of those who are disadvantaged. In the position of those who suffered a great loss, whether it be a person, a financial setback, or a shattered dream.
I am still walking this journey.
And today I made a promise with myself: to take things slowly, to pace myself with reality.
I promise to get back every time I fall. I promise to walk when I cannot run, and I promise to crawl when I cannot walk.
Whatever it takes, I will do it.
I will not back down.
I'm moving forward.
I'm typing this out in the midst of chilly Melbourne.
In lockdown 2.0
Oh what a life.
I haven't written anything in a while. Well also because of some "technical issues" involving the death of my lovely companion -- Aqua, the loyal macbook air. For those wondering why: I accidentally spilled a whole cup of HOT BOILING TEA into my laptop.
No, no comments necessary.
I have accepted enough judgment and degrading stares from the guy in the computer shop.
It was an accident, OKAY? Okay.
Anyway let's rant about something else.
2020 has been one hell of a ride, yes. We're only halfway, but it seems like the world has gone through at least 3 cycles of fire - burnt - fire if not more. For context, in Australia we have battled through: bushfire - coronavirus - unemployment - BLM - more coronavirus and more to comeee yay
Tbh this year could've been worse for me.
But for the weirdest reason that I'm still not sure of, I was actually out of the lion's cage by the start of the year. An epiphany I thought wouldn't happen in the near future, at the time. I was quite pessimistic, or better phrased: I had careful expectations of what might happen. I didn't want to lift my head too high just to fall down hard.
Afterwards, things went by very slowly. I'm stepping forward, little by little.
It was frustrating in a lot of ways, but I guess I really have to be grateful for where I'm standing now. As slow as I'm moving, I AM moving. Some of my friends are stuck, in stagnancy because of this whole pandemic. A lot of things are cancelled. To them, 2020 IS CANCELLED.
So while analyzing this whole state, I am trying to place myself in their position. In the position of those who are disadvantaged. In the position of those who suffered a great loss, whether it be a person, a financial setback, or a shattered dream.
I am still walking this journey.
And today I made a promise with myself: to take things slowly, to pace myself with reality.
I promise to get back every time I fall. I promise to walk when I cannot run, and I promise to crawl when I cannot walk.
Whatever it takes, I will do it.
I will not back down.
I'm moving forward.
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