Learn to trust :)
Hey bloggers..it’s been such a long long time..I know..but I’m finally back..
Sebenarnya inx udah kangen banget pengen nge-blog..cuman aktifitas yang sangat teramat tersangat padat sekalianan memaksa inx untuk menjauhi livin-inx untuk sementara..huhuhu TT.TT
Well today is random actually. It’s just I had a rough day, and it’s hard to get over it. But then I remember what my favorite teacher used to tell me, “don’t ever stop writing.” So I’m finally back here in my blog, my home
Entah kenapa akhir-akhir ini inx mengalami krisis dengan yang namanya kepercayaan. Trust. Mungkin untuk kebanyakan orang, which I thought would be the innocent ones, kepercayaan itu adalah suatu hal yang mudah. Layaknya anak kecil yang begitu mudah mempercayai, begitu juga inx dulu. But as time goes by, inx merasa semakin sulit untuk mempercayai orang. Betrayal leaves a scar, and unfortunately that scar would never heal. I know this isn’t a good thing, but I’m an introvert kind of person. I didn’t have much to share with, and I keep all the burden inside. I tried to pretend like I’m okay, but I’d have to admit that it’s pretty damn hard. Huff, seems like a hard work. Sometimes lies slip out of my tongue, just like that. And the bad news is, it feels natural. Just like that.
Until now I don’t know how to deal with this kind of problem. The worst part of me is I’m always trying to avoid it, as in running away. That’s not exactly the way I’m supposed to act, but it’s just hard. When you are in the position of someone who is actually having the problem, you won’t say like, “hey, you shouldn’t have done that!” I reckon you might probably be frustrated for being judged by someone who has no idea of what you’re facing. Well, I felt those. Haha. Been through it ;)
Masih pengen nulis, tapi berhubung waktu yang mengejar dan ulangan-ulangan yang mematikan yang sudah menanti esok hari, maka inx harus segera mengakhiri post ini. Hihihi.
At the end of my post, sebenarnya inx masih ga ngerti juga kenapa inx nulis post ini, dan kenapa post ini ga ada tujuannya. Tapi mungkin ini hanyalah salah satu bentuk pelampiasan dari apa yang nggak bisa inx ucapkan. Trusting is still hard for me to do, but then, I should learn, shouldn’t I? So let it be.
I’ll learn to trust
Until then,
See ya later bloggers! ;)
cheers XD
inx
Sebenarnya inx udah kangen banget pengen nge-blog..cuman aktifitas yang sangat teramat tersangat padat sekalianan memaksa inx untuk menjauhi livin-inx untuk sementara..huhuhu TT.TT
Well today is random actually. It’s just I had a rough day, and it’s hard to get over it. But then I remember what my favorite teacher used to tell me, “don’t ever stop writing.” So I’m finally back here in my blog, my home
Entah kenapa akhir-akhir ini inx mengalami krisis dengan yang namanya kepercayaan. Trust. Mungkin untuk kebanyakan orang, which I thought would be the innocent ones, kepercayaan itu adalah suatu hal yang mudah. Layaknya anak kecil yang begitu mudah mempercayai, begitu juga inx dulu. But as time goes by, inx merasa semakin sulit untuk mempercayai orang. Betrayal leaves a scar, and unfortunately that scar would never heal. I know this isn’t a good thing, but I’m an introvert kind of person. I didn’t have much to share with, and I keep all the burden inside. I tried to pretend like I’m okay, but I’d have to admit that it’s pretty damn hard. Huff, seems like a hard work. Sometimes lies slip out of my tongue, just like that. And the bad news is, it feels natural. Just like that.
Until now I don’t know how to deal with this kind of problem. The worst part of me is I’m always trying to avoid it, as in running away. That’s not exactly the way I’m supposed to act, but it’s just hard. When you are in the position of someone who is actually having the problem, you won’t say like, “hey, you shouldn’t have done that!” I reckon you might probably be frustrated for being judged by someone who has no idea of what you’re facing. Well, I felt those. Haha. Been through it ;)
Masih pengen nulis, tapi berhubung waktu yang mengejar dan ulangan-ulangan yang mematikan yang sudah menanti esok hari, maka inx harus segera mengakhiri post ini. Hihihi.
At the end of my post, sebenarnya inx masih ga ngerti juga kenapa inx nulis post ini, dan kenapa post ini ga ada tujuannya. Tapi mungkin ini hanyalah salah satu bentuk pelampiasan dari apa yang nggak bisa inx ucapkan. Trusting is still hard for me to do, but then, I should learn, shouldn’t I? So let it be.
I’ll learn to trust
Until then,
See ya later bloggers! ;)
cheers XD
inx
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