Hope
Hi guys. I'm back with a topic that has been distracting my mind for the past week or so. 'Hope' has become a nightmare for me in 2020. It's the word that I fear the most, that I try to avoid for as long as I can. I know, you might think I'm weird. Isn't 'hope' such a positive word? It symbolizes the bright light at the end of the tunnel. Something to keep us on our feet, to keep us running. But that word has totally a different effect on me this time around. Let me explain. At the beginning of the pandemic, things didn't seem too bad. I mean, of course I saw the news from Wuhan, the lockdown happening there, and the struggles at the time -- but I didn't think it would blast to this scale. To the point that it wiped out more than half of 2020 in a blink of an eye. Tbh I'm still questioning where I'm at right now. At that time everything seemed relatively stable. 'It's gonna be okay', I told myself. Fast forward to a few mont...
